what I did yesterday:
- woke up, consumed 200mg caffeine to not pass out immediately
- took the prescribed max dosage of antidepressants
- went to uni, cried
- went home, cried
- took my ‘emergency’ antianxiety pill
- went to work, cried so hard I got sent home after an hour
- went home again, cried
- took 2 (different) antianxiety pills
- went to bed, couldn’t sleep, took melatonin every 30 minutes till I passed out at 5pm
also, as everyone else said, you really are pretty 💖
See you should use melatonin 2h before you want to sleep and not later and not more often because that will just fuck up your sleep cycle.
She fell asleep at 5pm, so someone else might need your advice, but not her.
I’m saying this because I care about people, not because I’m trying to be smart. I know nothing about medicine.
For you to say “took melatonin every 30min” I would assume that’s at least 3 doses, because most people would say this in a different way of it were only two. So that’s dose one - half an hour - dose two - half an hour - dose three - fall asleep. So the latest you could have gone to bed is 4pm.
Before 4pm you’ve been to uni, then home, then work, then home. I’d assume a 15 min commute to work and might as well say the same for uni - that’s an hour spent commuting.
Let’s say your uni class started at 8am though (even though it’s conceivable it could have started as late as 1pm), it’s not unreasonable to assume getting up at 6:30am to get ready. 200mg of caffeine taken at 7am would be on average 100mg of caffeine still in your system by midday, and 50mg still there by 5pm. An average espresso has around 60mg+/- of caffeine in it.
If you’re going to bed at 4pm with the equivalent of an espresso’s worth of caffeine still in your system - very many coffee lovers who take an active interest in their own body rhythms will tell you that having an espresso before trying to sleep messes with their ability to sleep and/or the quality of their sleep. People who take caffeine intake particularly seriously (of whom I am not one of them) will often be heard claiming that they avoid all coffee at least eight hours before bed time, because they notice the difference in their sleep and their mood if they break that rule.
I’m sure you know this, having been given a prescription but mixing high doses of caffeine with antidepressants increases jitteryness and anxiety in the user.
I’m assuming this is why you’ve prefaced your post with the “one person’s trash is another person’s treasure” style meme and that you’re taking the piss out of yourself for taking all these drugs on purpose. You’re literally listing the most ridiculous things to do with all of these substances.
And if you don’t know this, and the meme and everything else is all naive, and you’re struggling to cope and are crying and sad and feel like you’re in a spiral then please - understand that I’m not trying to make you feel bad or patronise you. If you genuinely do need these meds, then you have to moderate how you use them. I can’t give you medical advice on how to do that but what you’re doing is not sustainable.
It’s very rare that I comment online so if I’ve missed the tone of your post completely then I apologise for interfering, but it makes me sad to see someone so young fucking around with all these meds because I am particularly sceptical about them, and favour a more nature based approach to mental wellbeing.
For context, I am one of the worst people I know when it comes to looking after themselves /properly/.
This person coffees.
As a personal anecdote, I’ve had tight deadlines with way too much caffeine and way to little sleep a few times in my life, and they all fucked me up.
Now, if I’m burning the candle at both ends, I’ll limit my caffeine to 2-300mg spread over a day, and stop at least 6h before sleeping. Much less fucked up. The world does not get better if you suffer for no reason, and you always would have needed just 3 more days.
Only 200mg of caffeine? Back when I was in the Army, I used to consumed like 900 to 1200mg of caffeine each day.
I have cardiovascular problems now. I assume it’s because of the stress of holding up American Imperialism because I wanted free college or something.
“Imperialism is the maintaining and extending of power over foreign nations, particularly through expansionism, employing both hard power and soft power.” (Thanks Wikipedia)
I was in the army too and kept wondering why US has military posts & bases all over Europe & Asia etc, but other countries don’t have military bases on US soil 🤔
Nice to finally have a word for that. Imperialism. Seems kinda awful & corrupt. Kinda like that board game “RISK” in which the objective I suppose is to take over other countries with your military presence.
There are some countries with training bases in the USA. Germany, Italy, UK, Ntherlands, and Signapore who have one in Idaho of all places.
Uh. Yes, you build tolerance, but that is absolutely not healthy. I guess if your concerns are getting shot by a local goat herder for invading, caffeine issues are pretty down the list, but still. Don’t if you can.
I hate how you’ve proved your point right then and there… Pls take care of yourself tho (that’s a lot of caffeine)
Updoot best Phase trashpanda
i can fix her? nah i want her to make me worse :3
also woag beautiful <3
so true omg. grippy socks girls are the true spirit
also you’re so pretty
and also i have been so depressed for the last week, i think it’s the weather (it’s getting cold all of a sudden. other people say it as well).
also hell yeah autism 🔥
Where do I get that autism shirt
Oh wow. Fuck hope you’re gonna feel better. I can feel that. Can’t went to work for like 1 day and half lately before panicking and just went home. Running on cafeine right now no more meds for a while cause I got no treatment anymore because none was working right.
pretty girl epic shirt, crazy day
Pretty girl
I wish I was a pretty girl too
Sometimes I had both opinions about the same girl, but not at the same time.
Sounds like you need a hug or three.
hugs
Hang in there.
Oof, you hanging in there girly? :( That’s a rough day
