I’m saying this because I care about people, not because I’m trying to be smart. I know nothing about medicine.

For you to say “took melatonin every 30min” I would assume that’s at least 3 doses, because most people would say this in a different way of it were only two. So that’s dose one - half an hour - dose two - half an hour - dose three - fall asleep. So the latest you could have gone to bed is 4pm.

Before 4pm you’ve been to uni, then home, then work, then home. I’d assume a 15 min commute to work and might as well say the same for uni - that’s an hour spent commuting.

Let’s say your uni class started at 8am though (even though it’s conceivable it could have started as late as 1pm), it’s not unreasonable to assume getting up at 6:30am to get ready. 200mg of caffeine taken at 7am would be on average 100mg of caffeine still in your system by midday, and 50mg still there by 5pm. An average espresso has around 60mg+/- of caffeine in it.

If you’re going to bed at 4pm with the equivalent of an espresso’s worth of caffeine still in your system - very many coffee lovers who take an active interest in their own body rhythms will tell you that having an espresso before trying to sleep messes with their ability to sleep and/or the quality of their sleep. People who take caffeine intake particularly seriously (of whom I am not one of them) will often be heard claiming that they avoid all coffee at least eight hours before bed time, because they notice the difference in their sleep and their mood if they break that rule.

I’m sure you know this, having been given a prescription but mixing high doses of caffeine with antidepressants increases jitteryness and anxiety in the user.

I’m assuming this is why you’ve prefaced your post with the “one person’s trash is another person’s treasure” style meme and that you’re taking the piss out of yourself for taking all these drugs on purpose. You’re literally listing the most ridiculous things to do with all of these substances.

And if you don’t know this, and the meme and everything else is all naive, and you’re struggling to cope and are crying and sad and feel like you’re in a spiral then please - understand that I’m not trying to make you feel bad or patronise you. If you genuinely do need these meds, then you have to moderate how you use them. I can’t give you medical advice on how to do that but what you’re doing is not sustainable.

It’s very rare that I comment online so if I’ve missed the tone of your post completely then I apologise for interfering, but it makes me sad to see someone so young fucking around with all these meds because I am particularly sceptical about them, and favour a more nature based approach to mental wellbeing.

For context, I am one of the worst people I know when it comes to looking after themselves /properly/.