Uhhh

That I’m pleasing. That I’m wanted. And things that make clear they can see through my reflexive masking of social vulnerability, like hiding when I enjoy something 🥹

If someone can see that I’m wet, or see how I’m avoiding eye contact, or see that I’m squirming and I’m not able to hide how I’m reflexively reacting to them, them pointing it out and clearly enjoying that they can see through me and find my vulnerability gratifying turns my brain into mush…