** stolen notice:

  • the white text content is stolen from the lyrics of the song Big Time Rush by the band Big Time Rush
  • the rest of the post if my own work
who cares ramble

* but who cares notice:

  • it doesn’t matter to peeps if u make ur real life own post or repost a twitter screenshot u found on reddit
    • infact: peeps prefer the latter.
  • so now im making a joke about that by only working on this for less than 10 minutes. maybe next time i put peter griffins and stuff in there too, who knows
  • this even affects that one awesome artist who posts their awesome drawings here. their work is awesome!!! >o< genuinely! but… a source-less hornyrepost gets more attention
  • yeye i know im reading into things too much, i shouldnt care and i should just - do things cuz i wanna, and i do… i do… whatever-

what u want, what u feel
never quitting, make it real.
when u rule big time.

thought of making an airplane-spoon-feeding post, made this instead.

the former might come later tho, when im in the mood.

rn, im not in the mood. i didnt have a chili chee burger (but will have tomorrow) and i - didnt even have my spicy noodles. now im just sitting sad infront of a fan and writing big time rush lyrics onto my screen.

whatever yaps. dont click if u dont like zaziki

gosh i need irl peeps rn. mother will return in two days. thats one peep.

brother was over few days ago. first time he addressed… my transness. ever.
i asked him before “what are u discussing with father about me?” and he said “well about u not doing so well in ur body” and… i wasnt sure if we were thinking about the same thing. apparently hes smarter than i thought and had been talking about it with my father a bunch. he (brother) told me that he couldnt imagine wanting to live as a woman, but that hes totally fine with it. father apparently didnt wanna accept it right away. brother told me details. apparently, father thought it was a phase that disappears in a month or so. i was over at his place couple of weeks ago and we talked about some not-that-topic stuff, also about depression (hes got problems with it, i likely inherit some of that). according to brother, that conversation made him okay with the topic. father didnt tell me directly but that makes sense.

im happy about that. big progress.

i want plant-based chili chee burger. and i want - to spoon-feed someone. those things can exist as exclusives.

alt image link (blahaj zone)

  • pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    5·
    7 hours ago

    Lol you’re making me log in for the first time in months to say this–I really appreciate your creativity and art, and I send your memes to my friends and they appreciate them too!

    • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      2·
      4 hours ago

      omygoshy omygosh whaaat >o< u send some of em to your friends???!?!??!!? that is the highest praise i could hope for. it means a lot to me, thank you very much for sharing this with me.

  • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zoneMEnglish
    2·
    10 hours ago

    I’m so happy that your family seem to be coming to terms with your transition! That said, you should probably have an official conversation about it with them, even if they already know. For that, I wish you luck o7

  • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
    9·
    18 hours ago

    what u want - what u feel ~
    never quittin, make it real
    wheeen u roll big time.

    (oohoo oohoo)
    hey! - hey! -
    listen to ur heart now.
    hey! - hey! -
    dont u feel the ruuush? (oh god yes i do feel the rush its rushing its rushing its rushing i dont know what im feeling)
    oohoo - oohoo (hoooooo)
    oohoo - oohhhhhhh-

    go and shake it up - what uve gotta lose?
    go and make ur luck with the life u chose.
    if u want it all - lay it ALL on the line! (gosh im trying but what if the “all” i want is physically distant and distracted rn and laying it all on the line doesnt change much about that?)
    its the only life uve got - so u gotta live it big time!

    buuueeeeeuuuumm 🎸

    • Aniki@feddit.orgEnglish
      3·
      17 hours ago

      very good song. also few comments: i think that basically the human is a big engine that drives the world forward. and you are feeling that? “big rush”

  • Aniki@feddit.orgEnglish
    5·
    17 hours ago

    i really wish that your parents love you and accept what makes you happy.

    the thing with “self-made art” is that many people don’t realize the creative process. i.e. many people just see the output. and i think that maybe you want to connect through the process by sharing your thoughts? so you should talk about that directly. how you like the font, the background, etc.

    • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      4·
      16 hours ago

      thank u for reading those parts, it means a lot to me.

      yea the whole self-made stuff… i know thats a thing on non-art-centric social media and i should expect it to work this way. things get discoursed upon based on relevance, looks, interest and spiciness, and thats okay. dunno if i wanna talk about whatever boring wanna-be-“artistic decisions” i make. that doesnt feel interesting, that topic doesnt have a fun texture i think.

      and woah yes im happy that father is now apparently on-board. very - verrrry big relief there.