My life-partner got drunk then spontaneously enraged again last night. Result: needing to walk barefoot around the neighborhood for a while, a damaged laptop, and needing to replace a computer screen. He apologized this morning. I think alcohol is consistent with times people become violent toward me, and isn’t something I generally want to be around. I like the old Russian film Stalker (1979), and am reminded of when he pours the alcohol onto the ground, because it isn’t an appropriate place for that. Though small skirmishes of violence still break out anyway, which fade into a sort of mutual exhaustion. It can be challenging finding people to watch Stalker with. Cigarettes are another subtle vice in the film. I’m happy my life-partner’s been off nicotine for a while at least. I’ve also heard of the higher heavens free from strife in the Buddhist cosmology; want to be an influence in that direction & beyond.