• applebusch (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    2 days ago

    you can get better. i thought the same thing a few years ago when i finally started going to therapy. in the beginning it didnt feel like i was doing anything, like it wasnt working. i was so deep in masking, my maladaptive coping strategies, my numbness and fear. but slowly i started challenging myself to change, to address the ways i hurt myself to protect myself. ive learned a lot and changed a lot, and i sometimes even feel some hope that i can be a real person, and sometimes i even feel like i am. theres still so much to do but im getting better all the time.

    its hard, and it hurts, and its so fucking scary to try to heal the parts of you deep inside that other people beat into submission, but you can do it. just one little step at a time.

    • knightly the Sneptaur@pawb.social
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      2 days ago

      So much this.

      But yeah, missing a few essential human pieces is actually kinda no big deal, 'cuz all you need to make up for it is a few people who can accept you as you are.

      I gave up on being people years ago, but since I found my persons, they’ve helped me blossom in ways I’d never imagined could be real. =O