i am lukewarm and i hate it. i want to be warm or hot but i am lukewarm. i am scared of becoming rotten. going crazy at the thought of being warm, but actually being ice-cold.

catbox still having issues rn. so for now, imma have to rely on blahaj zones terrible image compression algo, making my low res posts look like a poorly timed slobbery kiss on the elbow.

there is a flower within my heart.
daisy. daisy!
planted one day by a glancing dart.
planted by daisy bell ~
whether she loves me or loves me not…
sometimes its hard to tell.
yet i am longing to share the lot
of beautiful daisy bell.

sorry for not making a post yesterday. i will try to make it up to yall today… lets see if i can do it.

i feel myself getting colder, despite being oh so kindly warmed up recently. i don’t want to be too much. and i am not too much, i am in fact rather ambient. one might say lukewarm.

i opened myself in a way i haven’t done before and was welcomed in a way i couldn’t even have wished for. it made me so unbelievably happy, i could barely breathe at the time. and i still am happy about it, but my focus not shifted.

how do i make sure im not too much? what i shared was heavy but was taken with such such care that it felt like a dream come true. funnily, it literally was, but that’s for another day. maybe day 13, who knows.