i am lukewarm and i hate it. i want to be warm or hot but i am lukewarm. i am scared of becoming rotten. going crazy at the thought of being warm, but actually being ice-cold.

catbox still having issues rn. so for now, imma have to rely on blahaj zones terrible image compression algo, making my low res posts look like a poorly timed slobbery kiss on the elbow.

there is a flower within my heart.
daisy. daisy!
planted one day by a glancing dart.
planted by daisy bell ~
whether she loves me or loves me not…
sometimes its hard to tell.
yet i am longing to share the lot
of beautiful daisy bell.

sorry for not making a post yesterday. i will try to make it up to yall today… lets see if i can do it.

i feel myself getting colder, despite being oh so kindly warmed up recently. i don’t want to be too much. and i am not too much, i am in fact rather ambient. one might say lukewarm.

i opened myself in a way i haven’t done before and was welcomed in a way i couldn’t even have wished for. it made me so unbelievably happy, i could barely breathe at the time. and i still am happy about it, but my focus not shifted.

how do i make sure im not too much? what i shared was heavy but was taken with such such care that it felt like a dream come true. funnily, it literally was, but that’s for another day. maybe day 13, who knows.

  • gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    6 hours ago

    you’re like aang in this scene:

    where they carry a flame up the mountain. aang is constantly worried about the flame being too big, meanwhile zuko tells him that his flame will go out because aang doesn’t give it “enough juice”. don’t worry about your flame being too big. it’s like a heartbeat, it needs to be strong. you’re only gonna hurt others if you’re careless and treat fire like a plaything, but once you understand that fire is life, you’re not gonna hurt others with it, just like you wouldn’t hurt yourself.

    The episode is “Firebending Masters” btw if you wanna look it up (book 3, episode ?)