maybe we rule. maybe we don’t. i hope you have someone to rule with, that you don’t want someone to rule with or that you find someone to rule with soon. same goes for me.

alt image link (blahaj zone, worse quality)

* edited note:

  • i’m sorry to say but i don’t have the source of the image anymore. i do know however that these are the Austrian alps
  • reverse image search can help, but here’s what i suggest instead: just look at nice images of the Austrian alps instead. you will be satisfied, trust me. here’s a starting point. all images are free to use

the world is wonderful alone. but in my mind, it is so much more beautiful when shared. yes i’m a hopeless romantic, leave me to it…

i want to make someone feel loved and know that they matter to me and know that i want to see them happy. horray.

not sure what to write anymore. oh yea, i know, this is an early day post again. so be it. tomorrow i may not have the time to make one, so here i am doing it a bit in advance. i hope that’s fine with y’all. tap my hand if it’s not, okay?

i’m sorry there is no alt image link. i will update the post once catbox goes online again and i will also update my previous post which didn’t use a catbox link. the 400x600 resolution really suffers under that level of compression.

i want to sit somewhere where there is a nice environment to look at, where we both feel comfy and where we can share… something. maybe it’s a Kaiserschmarrn, maybe it’s a description of how the environment and the wind is making us feel, maybe it’s a detail we find fun or maybe it’s just a vibe. what am i even saying?

i have to understand that this special someone is farther away from now than i believe they are. and that hurts quite a bit. maybe i’ll have luck in new degree thingy i’m switching into. let’s see. it’s time-based media btw… yeaaaaa of course it’s something with media… what else could it have been, amiright?.. yeah…

EDIT: forgot to add: have a lovely day ~

EDIT2: replaced image link with higher quality jpg. still: have a lovely day.

  • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zoneMEnglish
    2·
    8 hours ago

    It’s more that she has committed to living a life where she lives only by her own code rather than “respectable” external expectations. Her commitment to her principles is one of my favorite things about her, as saying no to prevailing norms takes a ton of strength. Her independence is so important that wanting her to bend to your will is basically her red line. Just like how there are things we do that you cannot tolerate; trying to police her behavior is a hard, uncompromising boundary.

    Also yes, she does have many tales of adventure. I’m convinced she has magical properties.

    • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      1·
      8 hours ago

      yea, i expected as much… its not about not wanting to be told what to do in a spicy way, but more “not being told anything at all” essentially. living by her own principles… i can see that.

      but now i know that… sigh im just … less interested in her now. she’s like - the adventurer of this world, she’s the one who might beat the big evil dragon all on her own, maybe with some friends and… i would still be … at least a bit sad that … i can’t make her feel the same super spiky excite bubbly sparkles one feels when being lead a bit or told what to do or … even just praised in a certain way.

      i get it. imma have to be more careful with her and… whatever. i’m now disappointedly sitting in my chair, being disappointed and thinking about how very intentionally dry i will be to her going forward. not as a … not as a punishment but more as a disappointingly “John Dough” type of experience… i’m not sure why.